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Name: Jason
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Orlando
Gender: Male
Interests: Everything... and i mean that. If I had to list my most favorite though.... hmmmm.... Anime, Manga, Martial Arts, Music, Movies, Video Games, Languages, Cultures, Physics, Math, Art, History, Paradoxes, Roleplaying and a various assundries of other stuff as well...
Expertise: The only thing I know is that I know nothing.
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Yakalopoli
Member Since:
1/23/2006
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| I must say it has been a while. I have been quite busy with school. But, seeing as how lab got out early today; I think I shall write some of the things on mes mind...
Russki
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Confirming the idle thoughts and flickers lingering in my mind,
The truth of causality seems to intrude for the past-fourth time,
Conception of construed measures in light of logical fallacy,
Distance and time is just a long sobriquet of personal identity,
Only the fading walls reveal the truth unbound in soft desire,
Grounded in the caste chambers carnal delight of fleshless attire,
Seen indited the dichotomy beneath all persona and projection,
How does intwine of hate and love feel the need of rejection,
This the heart lovely and caught statement of false pretences,
Pain extracted and liquid desire leading to barrier bridging fences,
Russki the calling of debt and bickering ego falicitallity comes,
To show the end of golden and changing the high crimson ones...
Sophrosyne
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Threshold calling,
Identity in the case of pain,
Pattern weaving,
When the times routine,
Harmonic convergance,
Bringing it beneath fathoms,
Synaethesia confusion,
Where is what of then becomes,
Aria enlightens,
Logos allure in nigh daybreak,
Crescendo theming,
Deep in the cause of why
Sophrosyne fallal,
Death of them in holding...
Feeling
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There are four times I felt for love in everything
Only two remain as romantic and two as folly
One is falling into a decayed lump of pestilence
The other lingers for ages and eons have past
Now the others are just a memory faded
Though memory can be stifled by presence
Lingering desire of why won't it stop calling
Voices and memories wait and fester
She was thy only true desire for ever of life
But past that and away memories on shifted
Damn those feelings for lovely morrid wings
A tackle and a wrestling for pillows beneath us
Break our fall and let us land softly
For I am falling away from life in the torridity
She remains ingrained and burnt in heart
Why the pain as it seeps out buries itself
In mind and soul from hearts abyssal ether
I feel the need to hear the voice of an angel
But she is torrid and eratic in lifes demeanors
Leaving me incomplete and a longing for more
Trinity of pain, pleasure and desire fills me
As the heart I gave her once still is marked
Phantom queen crow and frenzy rules me sovereignty.....
Love to she who brings me war
and love to everyone after and before...
~Jason
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| OK peps, here we go... First update!
I drove all 12ish hours
straight to Winter Park, FL with my love Teddi, of course taking a few
stops along the way. Kroger, Arby's, several gas stations, ya know the
usual... with some "added" *ahem* experiences in the Kroger late at
night. We got to the apartment, and crashed
the fuck out. Teddi left eairly sunday morning, and I proceded to hang
out with my roomate Austin and his friend Landon till wensday when he
left. We went to a place called "Beat the Box," which is a large LAN
place where everyonbe gets 50' High Def TV's for some action. We
played Halo 2 and some other people joined in. Of course I kicked all
their asses ^_^. It was close with one guy, though. We picked up a
washer and a dryer from a relative he has here, ate some chinese,
played some Phantasy Star Online EP. III C.A.R.D. Revolution for ever and had a good time.
And with that passed, all the school stuff begins ^_^;
Wensday
was Orientation at Full Sail. I sat in the Computer Animation
Auditorium with all ouf my classmates (those who showed at least) and
we went over just about everything...
We got the handbook, an outline of procedures, etc... ya know, all the
usual orientation what-have-you. It lasted about 4 hours and all was
good. Eairly Thursday morning was the final registration process.
Finishing up with housing, admissions, getting my student ID/security
badge and all that usual stuff. We got our books and our schedule for
the first month: Ethics and Psychology and Composition. Clases on
Monday to Thursday from 1:15 to 5:00 p.m. All the loops, jumps and
hurdles to finish enrolling and gettin all the buisness out of the way
before the fun can begin.
Eairler today at roughly 2:00 p.m.
there was a Keynote meeting in the computer animation auditorium that
was first come first serve for attendants. Needless to say I was there
eairly, and for reasons you'll see below...
Five industry professionals came to the meeting. A leader from ILM, an animator from Blue Sky Studios, a designer from Sony Imageworks, and two game designers from Critical Mass.
They answered questions and gave presentations, and amazed us all. The
guy from ILM did all the modeling and rigging for Davy Jones and the
Kraken in the new Pirates Movie and showed us the process and
comparison clips. The guy from Blue Sky showed us his work on Ice Age
2 and his current work on the new CG Dr. Seuss movie. Afterwards we
watched the Demo Reels from all this months graduates, which were
fucking cool. After everything I got to chat with the cool guy from
Critical Mass. He gave me his card afterwards and told me to keep in
touch. Fuck Yea!
I joined the Full Sail Siggraph
club and am going to join several other clubs once my Propeller (Full
Sails' Wired Student Reasource Site) account gets hooked up on Monday.
I will be making my own website for all my works and creations to go up
on, as well as keepin everything updated on my MySpace here.
Love ya all!
Keep checking the Wired! And keep in touch!
~Yaki / Jason / Jubei | | |
| ~Well here I am. A month has passed and only a day remains. Wow, not even a full day now. I will be leaving ALL of my friends whom I've known for ages, and moving to a place where I know few family and even fewer friends. Though I never talk to these friends anymore, hopefully me being down there will get them to call me every once and a while or at least respond to my e-mails O_o...
~Those who don't know or haven't cared to take notice might take a gander about a month ago at my blog. I am moving to Winter Park, Florida and attending FullSail's Computer Animation degree program for about 21 months. That is a batchelors degree, crammed in there an all that shit. I get little time off in both the yearly sense and the weekly sense, and will be poo-ass broke.
~Thankfully I have a friend driving down with me. Boone. He's gonna fly back. I have a cool roomate that I haven't actually met yet, but he likes all the same things I like so thats cool. Austin, the guys name, is in the same degree program and starts the same time so that's kinda convienent.
~I am gonna miss all of you guys (and girls) soo fucking much.
~Boone, Chase, Matt, Dae, Gen, Luke, Cody, Brandon, Randy, the other Randy, Darcy and everyone at NERO MTN, Everyone from GameStop (or used to work there... the people who work there now suck ass), A couple of people from Wal-Mart, Johnny, People from MySpace whom I haven't mentioned, My brother Dustin who brings me joy and tears, My brother Galen for whom I'd do anything, My parents not so much but I gotta list 'em here, cause without them I woulden't be going, and my love, my heart, my soul... Teddi, whom I love eternally, and will miss sorely.... If i haven't mentioned you, it's cause I'm too sad to think straight, and too excited to look back. I love all of you guys.
~Yes, I'm crying... so fucking what. I'll visit when I can and for as long as I can. Hopefully you'll come visit too. I'll defintely keep in touch through MySpace / Xanga / E-Mail / AIM / and Phone. You bitches better too.
~I've fallen in love again, and this time ever so deeply. She is magnificent and makes me happy. Though I am sad because I have to leave. Timing is everything, and here the punch line was a little too late. I love her enough to wait for her and send her lovely things. Call her and write to her. Visit her and create for her. Do anything for her. A lingering heart though thrown apart, absence grows stronger for our hearts to grow fonder.
~There...... think I'm done now. Or I don't know what else to fucking say.... Mabey both.
~Here is a pledge though: "I am going to make video games. Fucking awesome videogames at that. Fear infested stealth horror games, Fulmination overrun First Person Shooters, Completly open-ended grand-scale Online games, and Epic-apex Roleplaying Games among others not touched. And in my games, will be you guys and girls. It may be subtle, and it may be obvious, but you will be in them. And they. Will. Rock."
~~Fuck this world, let's make our own...
~Love ya bitches
~Jason / Jubei / Yakuza / or just Yaki...
p.s. - "Next time I shall leave no child untoched!" | | |
| Incalescence - Process or action of becoming hot
Incarnadine - Relating to a blood red or crimson color; to render something that color
Acronychal - Happening in the evening or night
Floccinaucinihilipilification - Action or habit of judging something to be worthless
Etaoin Shrdlu - A nonsense phrase; an absurd or unintelligible utterance
Mithridate - An antidote
Nychthemeron - A night and a day
Rhadamanthine - Rigorously just and severe
Syzygy - A conjunction or opposition, especially of the moon with the sun
Tergiversate - making conflicting or evasive statements; equivocate
Yclept - by the name of; called
Zenzizenzizenzic - The eighth power of a number
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You bring me happiness in your wonderous smile,
Your lovely eyes show me what I've missed this long while,
Your beauty inchanted my whole quaint being,
Your voice causes shivers while you talk and sing,
Your warming touch it fills my cold soul,
Your hair shines brighter than the sun so gold,
Can I see you just one more,
Be in your prescence to ease this sore,
To leave this place and all these scars,
Hold you tight and soar among the stars...
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There is a place, oh so very far from here, where a small spring lies. Lost to all but one, it lies in wait... I will take you there, because it was made for you...
Close your eyes and take a deep breath... Now clear your mind. Start taking deep breaths and with each breath you will count... Starting at ten and going down to one, you will breath. Take your deep breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth, imagining that each time you breath in, all the good energy in the world envelops your being; and when you breath out, that all the negative energy stored in your body is exhumed...
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You see youself on a small path in a forest. The trees are all kinds of vibrant warm colors whose leaves litter the ground. The sun glistens through the tree tops and fills your body with a calming warmpth. As you meander down the path you come across a large collection of bushes on the left side of the winding path. Filled with all kinds of flowers and berries, this large bush is the most lovely of it's kind you have ever seen, but beware. This bush holds many thorns. For the normal person, even trying to pick a flower or berry would certainly mean harm if not death. However, the place we are going to is just on the other side of this bush. Now worries though... This bush is to protect those not meant to pass through. You are too lovely for it to dismiss you.
A quick step inside the bush, you are not even harmed in the slightest, and you find yourself feeling the calmest you have ever felt. No bad memories, and no sore thoughts. you are protected in this land.
This land is quite small, but all just for you. A small brooke runs out of a small jut of rock in the back flowing calmly into a small spring near the middle. Surrounding the spring are all the peacefull forest creatures... Squirrels and... oh, yes of course... small bunnies and foxes; fluffy bears and butterflies. A warm mist comes off the spring which is full of small lilly-pads with larger lillies growing out from them, glowing in the sunlight. The butterflies swirl around the flowers and a faint music echoes from the distance. Around the corner a small saytr comes hoping, playing his pan pipes and carrying a small box with a small red bow tied to the top. Bowing bracefully, he hands you the box. A small wink and the satyr is back at playing his pipes... Hoping off into the distance... but, even as he flies further and further away, the music still lies in the area. Sitting by you in the spring, and as you start to open the box. Inside the box you see many flowers, lillies to be exact... They shine in the sunlight. One by one they are slid into your hair, adorning your head like a magneficent bouquet, only adding to the shin of your already, luminescent hair.
Thing are calming, the sun is setting. You curl up on a small rock that's as light as the clouds, and a soft your touch. Lying on a giant pillow you drift, now staring at the developing stary sky. Breaking away from the grounded earth you start floating amon the lillies and warm spring water... You float endlessly down the calming brooke towords the giant, endless sea; And it is here that you fly. It is here that you soar. It is here that you drift along the endless sky.
Wherever you go, whatever you do... remember... you will always have this place. Where you are safe, and where you are calm. Where you are god, and the world bows to your whim.
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Breaking down I can not assemble,
Through my mind and body here I tremble,
Every time that I think of you...
Wondering what the end will be,
Wanting so eternaly to see,
Oh what the hell should I do?
I want to hold and make you elated,
Make it worth the time we wated,
If only I knew...
But here I wait and try my hardest,
Figuring the way to get the closest,
Even if they seem askew...
You will see,
Oh I hope how you see,
That these things are true...
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Yellow numbers, blue trends time,
Florescent dangles and code mind,
Seeking dangers for uncouth mixes,
Messy jumbled, sedated sexes,
Blinding, foretell serated wires,
Diplomatic death-threat fliers,
Beneath the times for majior change,
Pulling bitches, dancing shooting range,
Primal legions, subconcious lust,
Among the carnal, flashing bus,
Fullset wastes for needy people,
Hiding blindly, devoid and steeple,
Theories frying along the facts,
Fuck you false and lying acts,
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Provocative times intwine the subfusgate regression...
Falling for slumbered along wealth caused depression...
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beneath me
lying torpid
subduing me
in bondage
allow me
to breath
let me
see light
for here
i cry
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laugh
cry
hate
and desire
among the qualities of those who lie higher
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The world, so fused with sound
~Yaki | | |
| Well... here I am
So excited to see
My final place to be
My final cause to grow
Waving too and fro
My past it lingers
Slips through my fingers
Bids me a final farewell
The present is now all well...
But I see one thing
A faint shadow in the light
A crying voice fading
A memory that still lives on
This memory is powerful
She's dug her roots deep
Into my skin and skull
Based beneath my heart
I once forgot but now I see...
Dance, Dancing, Danced eternal
Trip on toe, the luminescent light
Under neon winds nocturnal
Dancing with our memories tonight,
Forward I move, leading strong
Embracing the carnal, lusting desire
To the beat we weave our song
Tightly here we soar higher,
But never in a million, I'd see this
Not the one I thought, The deviant
Her graceous steps yeilding kiss
Only she dared... to taunt...
Hahaha, The wavering places I remember
Sickens me to the rotting core
I laugh at the passing moment
And cry once it has passed
I can not forget
Why can I not forget?
Fucking rooots stuck in my hardend skin
Bored into my very heart and soul
I must forget the feelings
Delusional feelings of launderd time
Only then shall I meet her face to face...
As I write
I try to be polite
But sometimes it might
Not seem quite right
This might excite
Poke and ignite
Your very fright
Although It'll be alright
You may take flight
Into the night
Fly a Kite
Be filled with spite
But tonight
We shall site
In the light
Warm and bright
Our causes delight
Although we may conrite
I do here plight
As a lone knight
To hereby incite
Your lovely sprite
And then to fight
The dwindiling height
Of stealing heart's sleight...
~Ai no mina-chan
~Jason | | |
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